we need to talk..
possibly the four worst words you could hear?

I'd love to feel your skin on mine. Just one last time.

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect- you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together, but if she can make you laugh; cause you to think twice; and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day,but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there"
— Bob Marley

Work overload

One assignment down, three to go..
I've offically just completed my first assignment and I'm rather proud of myself! However I have just under a week to complete the rest of this work and have it all emailed in before I go away, and I don't know where to start.

Them times when you really need that friend. Miss you so much Corey x
The only member of the 'barnet lot' I like. The most down to earth guy i ever met, even though he was a little shit. Your a true solider, I miss you more than ever and I love you lots x

Bob Marley

What a hero.

I don't chat to no one no more really

Things change, People move on.

I wish I laying on the beach with a cocktail

Orange Blossom, the most amazing drink I have ever had in my life.
xx

I'm so fed up of everything. Nothings how I want it to be, or how it should be.
I'm also suffering from seasonal depression and I'm hating on this weather, I'm so cold it's a joke. I just want to be in the sun.
I swear I'm only actually ever happy when I'm in Jamaica

Always appreciate what you have infront of you because you never know when it might leave.

It doesn't matter if your black or white.

We've all got a heart, we've all got organs and were all human beings.
Its just where your born that dictates what colour you are.
There's always going to be some sort of criticism; weather your fat, skinny, bald, crippled, ginger, skin diseases, blind, deaf etc.

When I was walking down the road in Jamaica I saw a black woman with white cream over her face, and I asked what that was about, and she was trying to bleach herself! Because she wanted to be white to avoid racism...

However one thing I will never understand is why it is classed as racist when a white person calls a black person a "nigger" when it is seen as perfectly normal for two black people to greet eachother with the term "nigger".

19th July - 5th August

JAMAICA JULY 19TH - AUGUST 4TH.
Without a doubt the most amazing and craziest 2 weeks of my life.
The worst thing the hotel did was give me and Courtney both an adult wrist band thinking we was both 18 or over, and from that moment onwards the 2 week party begun.

The first night after a 3 hour delayed flight and 18 hours worth of travelling we arrived at the hotel at about 9 O'clock in the evening, my mum went to bed and me and Courtney were up all night drinking. By about 12 O'clock we were both dared to go down the water slide (which is switched off at night) in our underwear, which we did. We then casually walked through the bar in our underwear put some towels on and hit the disco!
Every single morning without fail me and Courtney woke up and sat in the pool in absoulote histerics about something we had done or that happened the night before. EVERYONE and I mean EVERYONE (staff & hotel guests) in the hotel knew our names, everyday they were shouting our names on the speaker to join in with the entertainment and we always run off and hid. throughout the hotel we was known as "the crazy white english girls". Everyone thought me & Courtney were twins, or sisters and when we corrected them we were always told to be liars.

Watersports. Ok so I've offically fallen in love with the majority of the watersports/lifeguards. Watching them play football on the beach with their tops off was a treat in itself. Watching the lifeguards under my sunglasses became my daily routine.
Except the 2 wankers who left me & Courtney stranded at sea. We went on the banana boat and it tipped upside down in the middle of the sea, and i'm not even exagerrating I cannot explain how far from land we was. Then Cecil helped everyone up onto the boat except me and Courtney and told us to go back on the boat with Wayne. So we swam over to Wayne and he said he was going back in 15 minutes so we got back in the water. We then turn around and the boat full of people is heading back to the hotel. An hour and a half later of screaming and swimming me and courtney walked up onto the public beach and walked about 10 minutes along the beach back to the hotel. We were furious.
My Rusta Friends. I've never met such an amazing and genuine set of people in my life. I want to live with them on the beach in their huts. I ended up spending most of my time with them on the beach or in the Reggae Bar! The hotel security kept telling me off for taking them drinks all day long.
"you are no longer a tourist you are jamaican yourself".
The troublemakers. I got told about 3/4 times a day that I am a trouble maker or I look like one. and they were right, I got one member of staff fired (on our 3rd night) and almost got arrested for the same reason.

One morning I was pissed as a tart and throwing up and 11.45 am! Every morning I woke up with a hangover then slept it off by the pool.

noone understands mine and my mums love for Jamaica. But even Courtney now shares that love that we have, she said that it's one of them places you have to go to to understand what its all about.

I genuinely could write a book about the 2 weeks I spent in Jamaica and things we got up to. I can't believe it was all over so quickly I just want to be back there already! We were all in floods of tears on our last morning and when we said goodbye to everyone!

YAH MON ITS ALL IRIE

whenever something funny happens i want to text you, and then i remember you don't care anymore.

i want to fly away to a far away land, where the only ones there are the ones who understand.
"if i had wings, i would fly away."

Corey James

When you miss someone,
you'll realise you're so lucky to of had someone in your life,
worth missing...

I think about you every day, and to think that this time last year we were just sitting around with you making your random comments and crazy comments brings a tear to my eye.
the worst things happen to the BEST people.
still love you and miss you, as always xx

Jamaica 2010.

10 more days and I'll be back where I belong, JAMAICA.
can't. fucking. wait.