I really fucking miss you.

I miss this, and I really miss you. I don't know why I'm always pushing you away, perhaps I know it's because I know your no good for me, and I don't want to find myself overly attached to you all over again. but I knew that at the start, over a year ago. After all the shit you've put me through, and what we've been through together I still care about you alot, and I don't know why I do because I really shouldn't care about you at all. Noone has EVER had a hold over me the way you do, so thats quite a achievement for yourself. Your a cunt, and I'm a cunt. But I know the feelings I have for you are true. and the hardest thing is knowing there is no possible way we could ever be together. But the thing is, I don't actually want a relationship from you, But I don't want anyone else to have you. And I know they have, and still do. Which is why you're such a cunt.
September 2009 xxx